Sunday, July 18, 2010
Time to grow up
Last week my college courses arrived through the mail. The usual reading, writing and arithmetic will become the stress of unannounced quizzes and cramming for exams. I have been a community college freshman for perhaps three years now; not because I'm unmotivated, but rather lost. As I gradually progress through my twenties, fortuitous questions of who am I and what I want out of life jolts me every moment bills and responsibility reminds me that I am now an adult.
The thought of becoming a wife and mother is quit daunting to me. How can one commit themselves to other humans when the feeling of self love have never been experienced? The next five years of my life will become a search for my identity, discovering what motivates me to wake up in the morning and smile at a fire exlpoding sunrise. Only God knows what the future has for me, or what talents may harbour in this insecure body mine.